Long long time never blog..finally have the chance..hahas..i have just learnt how to pray in tongues..hopefully by the next service I could pray like others..and I really hope to fellowship with others well…and..i know my English is not that good so I need others to forgive me when I slowly talk..because I will tend to became speechless…hahas..i think it needs time to overcome it..too tired recently…hahas..oh ya..and during last Sunday…the pastor is speaking too fast so I didn’t really copy much(if any one have copy all,please lend me copy)…and the pastor is speaking too slang..so..i cant really understand what he say..next week we have prayer meeting too..so I hope I can really pray in tongues..
These few days felt so irritated..hais..3 of my uncles fight with the uncle.who always control me..so he moves to my house to stay.. oh no…I really scared he ll control me fully now…upset!!!hais…but I really find him pathetic…cus he is being kicked out from 3 of my uncles…so…my daddy cant bear it so he didn’t kicked my uncle out..but my mummy is quite angry that he moves in..and my parents had a small quarrel over my uncle…hais….sadist….
My other uncles also blamed my daddy for not contributing money...but we have no choice..so..i think i can work as much i can and help my parents to pay my uncles..
hais... i m back again..ytd.. pastor kong speak till very meaningful...i am being touched!!! so..i have now recieved jesus christ..i cant believe i can so fast accept it..but i know that i am quite happy with everything that happen nowadays..is like a sense of security and freedom!!!=)
i can feel a lot of people helping me and i got jesus with me..i feel that i have no more fear at night..
AS..........almost every night if i watch a ghost movie or sth,i tend to imagine here and there..and i cant sleep probably...although i have not watch a ghost movie recently..but i have that sense i ll not be scared at night..i know by saying is not enough..let me try it some days bahs..
OR maybe tonight..
cus..
tonight 1030 or 1045 like that, at channel 8..have a ghost show..so let me try it tonight...
i believe i can cured my fear in everything....cus i know god are with me every moment...
oh ya...
i have a question:
"should i reborn my hair?"
mmm...i really dunno should i or should i not...
& i want to learn art...who can teach me in a lot of patience as i admit i am a slow learner so ya..
&..
do he remember the scene i ask him to draw for me...i am pending till the day he give it to me..
when is the day?????
and do you still remember???
hais.....
why am i so silly????
hais...
wed gotta work again...
excited+tired!!!!!! hey hey..wow..today so happy menn!!!saw my primary school friend(a person that i like before in my primary school life) at my house carpark there...3 years already...he didn't even recognise me when i always walked past him during the 3 years...OMG!!today was so shocked man!
mmm...i am so touched man!!he say "hello" to me..oh no...
today i really feel so great...oh no no...ll i be too high then?=)
argh...is like i feels so calm suddenly..how come??
am i suppose to be tensed up man?cus recently... learning how to use a "cashier box" ..hahas..
that is really making me headahe man!!
need to memorise so many things sia..the code of the cakes, breads, muffins.....
*HEADAHE *-.-
hahas..oh no! forgotten to update..let me carry on with the other blog bahs.. hey...this is my first day of work today..feeling so nervous man! the whole day vexing about my clothes...sigh!! as we should wear plain clothes but i only have one shirt that is totally plain..tsk tsk..+scared+...but..i have a secret to cool me down!=)shhhh...
when i go there, my boss ask me to go to deposit a sum of money...+dots+..i declared that i have an illness which is an idiot at finding direction of roads..i felt so lost at the moment but i give it a try.BUT..
i go into the wrong bank(HSBC)..but luckily..
the bank that i went in..the deposit section have closed at the time..if not i will be in deep trouble man..^^thanks god!^^i felt i am so stupid..what a small thing also cant do well!!
=feeling warm=the boss didnt give me up..she showed me the direction of how to go to that bank(DBS)...>want to cry out man<..then i finally get the place right...
after that, my boss and i went to pack the breads that are being delivered to our shop into packets..wow! my boss do it so fast..but me was in a frantic rush man!!!
but i knew i have learnt quite a lot of things man..Though...
i still not sure of being a cashier as i still don't know of how to use a (cashier box)>>is it??mmm..i need some more training bahs..
wow! the cakes from our shop is real nice man! you can come and try!!! no fake!=)BUT................
is quite expensive de...today brought back quite a lot of breads..and a box of cake!! yummy!!!=)
oh yahs..last but not least..
my boss speaks english..i can learn more english right now...i really hope by the end of the year i can learn to speak my english well and fluently!!!!god bless..
& i am pending till sunday for service man!!!=)(13/11/2006)
hey..finally can update blog..last sunday went to church..i brought aiping,yong ting and alan to church..wow..what joyful day i have..after service,we went to the botanic garden..at there..get to know quite lots of friends..that i have never chat with them before..=)
i am really very happy..and my relationship with alicia have become quite close..oh no..is really very unbelievable that so many happy things can happen to me..oh oh..will unhappy things happen to me the next time...i believe you won't let it happen..i trust in you..=)
today is simin bdae.."happy bdae to you again!!!"hope you would see it...tml ll be alicia bdae lerhs..then 11 ll be aaron bdae..wow..one shot all man!=)
these few days kept on teaching my brothers..they didnt really listen to me..quite sad de..they are very naughty..hais..STRESS!!!!!!!!!
i dunno how to teach them..but then i cannot give up on them cus they are my xiao di..their heart only think of playing..i really dunno how to teach them man!
the only person they scared is my uncle...but i dun wan my uncle to continue to control us..but without my uncle..noone can control my siblings..if i repel my uncle,my house will be in big mess...cus my siblings ll be uncontrollable..HAIS...
whenever they are too naughty i caned them i ll hide in my room to cry...i felt so helpless..i find noone to help me..cus my parents also cant control them...maybe cus they are too good le bah.."can they stop playing??""can they listen to me??"who can i answer my question??????i really try hard to teach them but they didnt listen..when i test them,they all dunno..hmmm..what to do???please i need help...
they kept on failing a lot of subjects...i dunno what to expect for their PSLE result...hais...may god bless then too!!!!!! hey..finally have the chance to update blog..yays!!!!!!!=)
from friday till sunday i will be going out...wooh^^hahas..feelin so great man!& friday i can go cg..thanks god!all that i want is just freedom..hope my wish can come true..
although my uncle treats me bad but i know he wants me to be good..so.....i don't think i will hate him or what..now having ss...oh no! i really hope all our teachers can change to better teachers..i do not want to fail any of my subjects again..
i can see that ms maimunah didn't really care for me as whenever what i ask her to do...she did not get it done...EG: before exams, i ask her to pick question for me and she say she will remember but after my exams she still did not give me any..plus each day i see her, i kept nagging for the questions...as there is not much time left.....unexpectedly,i can see that she feels irritated.. i am very disappointed with her...i don't think i can trust her again..because i don't have any confident in her teaching any more..as my math is always maintaining at A1 but for my eoy i got 44 which is a F9 for my exam..i am very sad now....
although mr ansar teaches better than the relief teacher that came in our class the last time..but then he change slide(powerpoint) very fast...i request him to return to the previous slide but he said,"no, i want to go through it fast."hais...
oh ya..i am inviting both of my friends to church this sunday..hahs..oh no! i am very very happy...=)i hope they could feels god presense too as what i did..=)
aiyo..i have not find a job yet...please someone intro!!!!i am desperate for a job!=))